明天终于就回家了！
经历了一些小小的挫折，现在总算可以放心地躺下来睡觉。
这一次回家，大概有两个星期的假期。说短不短，却绝对不长。

假期过后，就有更多事情要做了。

再见了，第二个家！

今天终于也过了。再过几天就可以回家了。
今天的考试，只能说希望成绩不会太失望。
过了这样多年，我学到的是坚强。是那种遇到失败了要坚强的坚强，而不是要坚强面对考验的坚强。

过了那么多年，依然未变的圣诞树。

今晚又是一个不眠之夜……再过八个小时就是考试。考试过后又要准备另一个考试，然后就可以回家了！

野花也有美丽的一面……我却不知道自己美丽的一面在何处……

不知不觉，在少过一个星期的时间，我就要回家了……
回家！
是的，回家。
可是回家之前，总是要好好折磨自己一番的。
就从今天开始吧。

昨天，朋友打算要给我一个惊喜。

昨日……

可是老实说，其惊喜是我意料中的事。
但是还真的要谢谢所有付出的人。虽然是意料中的事，当我看着它发生时，还是有一些感动。
就如，当你知道自己买的号码中了头奖，拿到钱的时候还是会很感动。

谢谢大家！

朋友们对于我的想法……

而当晚还有一件另我感动的事情。
其中一位跟我买书的读者竟然记得我的生日，因为在书里我有写到我的生日。连我自己都有一点忘记了。我听到了真的有够感动的。
我答应所有支持我的人，会更努力把小说写得更好。
如果我跟着所计划的来写，接下来的作品是有可能被翻译的。只是我希望有人可以帮我翻译啦。要我一个人做到完全部东西实在很累。

誓言

《誓言》by董贞

不眠的云朵
眷恋著自由的风
那深情如我
对你不变的执著

你是 我拥有最美的梦
不愿 梦醒如朝露散无踪
只要 今生能为你分担忧愁
我无怨无尤

多想在紧握住你的手
感觉你不伪装的温柔
让我化作微风 穿越了时空
拥你在我的怀中

雨融入河流
停泊后不在追求
回汤在心中
是我坚定的承诺

你是 我拥有最美的梦
不愿 梦醒如朝露散无踪
只要 今生能为你分担忧愁
我无怨无尤

多想在握紧你的手
感觉你不伪装的温柔
让我化作微风 穿越了时空
拥你在我的怀中

擦乾泪
约定守候永远
等到花开的那一天
真爱会再现

多想在握紧你的手
感觉你不伪装的温柔
让我化作微风 穿越了时空
拥你在我的怀中

接下来的作品

所有20本书都已经有各自的主人了！只是有两本还没有交给主人。
至于SP的朋友们，再加两本给家人，就要等我回去以后再印了。很拍写要你们等。可是真的，我是有一些麻烦，所以才不能印好了再带回去。
到现在，我得到的评语都很不错。也不知道是不是读了的人看在我的面子上不敢讲它的缺点，还是真的我写到这样好……
可是不管怎样，谢谢你们的支持！
你们的支持，就是我的推动力！
至于接下来的作品，我暂时已经有idea了。如果传就先不写了。我想我还没有心理准备写那种风格的作品。
接下来的作品，我暂时给它取名为《记忆》。随着故事的发展可能会换成《记忆中的你》。还不确定。和《我的高中生活》一样，我不是focus在爱情上。我想写的，是关于前世今生的东西。什么时候开工呢，可能假期的时候就可以开始了。
对了，我二月一号回马来西亚，到十三号。

真正的Bahasa Malaysia

是时候再发表自己的意见。

自从纳吉当上首相，我在马来西亚的时间是少过一百天。所以，我只知道有One Malaysia这个东西，也知道有Salam Satu Malaysia这个东西，也还知道有大概是Satu Bangsa, Satu Bahasa, Satu Malaysia这样的东西。

从小，我们就学Bahasa Malaysia等于Bahasa Melayu；Bahasa Melayu亦等于Bahasa Malaysia。可是，对我来说，Bahasa Malaysia其实是可以有更深的意义，更广的范围。

我想，真正的Bahasa Malaysia，应该包括了：
1. Bahasa Melayu
2. 马来西亚人华语
3. 马来西亚人英语（即Manglish）
4. 其他土著的语言
5. （我不知道这里的淡米儿文和印度的有什么差别。如果有的话，应该也加下来。）

我这样说，不是纯粹在放屁。你看，马来西亚人的语言和其他国家的语言的确不同。就先拿马来西亚人英语来说。

马：Bradder, you eat already or not?
英：Hey, have you eaten?
美：Yo! Have you eaten?

我们还有我们独特的“lah”等助词。这就是马来西亚风光。也许新加坡也有，可是还算是马来西亚独特的语言。

现在我来说关于华语吧……

马1：刺饱了（liao）没有？
马2：还没有kok。
马1：真的咩？料你刚才去mamak做somok？

这种话，听在马来西亚人耳朵里亲切、舒服。却也是马来西亚独特的风光。

其实，连Bahasa Melayu 和 Bahasa Malaysia也是有分别的。

Bahasa Melayu：Bilakah kamu balik?
Bahasa Malaysia: Bile ko balek?

我们有这样多姿多彩、Only in Malaysia的东西，为什么不要公认它们呢？搞不好我这篇blog给UNESCO看了真的承认这些东西。

Bahasa是属于所有人的。

做人最重要的是什么？

不同人会有不同的答案。

我的答案，是要快乐。

什么是快乐？就是心里舒服，笑出真心。这，就是快乐。

有时候，胜利并不一定会快乐。成为最好的不一定会快乐。真正的快乐是出自心底的，不是踏在别人头顶而得来的。

所以到最后我作出这个决定。

我退出这个所谓的08第一队。我决定要自己找回快乐。

可能我不能像以前那样一直赢，可是我要快乐，输了也不用紧。

以后的日子会是怎样的，我不知道。

我现在的目标，是寻求快乐。

after one week i printed my books, there are 2 more left.
actually what really makes me happy is the support given by my family and friends. giving autograph is not the happiest thing, i am happy when i see people take my books happily.
feedbacks i got are mostly positive. maybe my friends dont want to hurt me. there are also very little negative feedback. and i appreciate every comments given.
the original price for each book is 35000 rupiah. and why im not taking back 100%, its because i think i should pay at least a little bit for your support. at first i didnt want to take even 1 rupiah but then thinking that doing this may hurt, and after emo for some time, i came up to this final decision.
and to my friends in malaysia, my mother said that printing in malaysia is equally cheap, so im going to print when im back in malaysia. i know this may take some time but i hope you all can understand. bring bunch of books up to an aeroplane is quite... hard to do.
some of my friends who finished reading the novel suggested me to write another ending for... you know who. so i wrote it and posted it already.
to those who asked me to translate it, sorry i cannot do that. it is too hard for me to translate it.
to those who asked me to publish it, i think this novel cannot be published because i used malaysian mandarin plus a lot of our daily words inside which i think outsiders cannot understand and no publisher would risk their money to publish it.
and finally, thanks again to everyone who has been supporting me. and big thanks to jpa for giving me allowance.

self conflict again

again, im questioning myself. am i doing the right things?
some of them are frustrated by the late arrival of our opponents today. but you know, i am really really rational. we do have our turns that we are late for something. and whenever this happens, someone else is waiting. and they may feel the same too.
so, i did not feel frust for this. the only thing i got frust today is the sudden cancel of our dota games. luckily, somehow they came in the end and we played.
first game, they only had 4 players, so one of us went to their team. i drafted the game and we won like... you know, rape. owning at early game and pushing and killing everywhere. second game, finally they were full, then i let another fellow drafted. it was a hard game but one of them disconnected so we remake halfway before the result was obvious. third game, we let another fellow drafted and... i got what i want to play lol and we won also.
so now, i have two questions.
am i right not to feel frust over their late arrival?
am i right to pass over my leadership?
i know it is better to feel nothing after they were late. just understand their situation and forgive them. thats the best. but, what do others think? and then, what do others think about me?
and i know, for heavens sake if i remain as the leader, we would be better. but then, it would go against someones will and interest. although this is also my interest, and is what i am famous for, but if i dont let go this, how will others think about it?

ok ok, i think thats enough for my self conflict again.
but i just want the world to become a better place lol.

今天有一个奇景。彩虹围绕着太阳。我也不知道是哪一个吃饱太得空去看天空，发现到这个奇景。变态的。太阳也好看。
一开始，我在吃饭的时候，一个不认识的大肥驾摩托过，然后又停下来，然后指着天空，跟我讲：“看上面。”
我还以为屋顶上面有老虎……
然后也在吃饭的一个印尼人走去看，回来后讲是彩虹。我就以为那个大肥太过三八，彩虹也好指……
最后，我自己吃饱出来了。才看到……

emo...

i got a sudden gush of emo... and this feeling is killing me. noone to talk to at the moment, all are busy with this countdown shit.
i think i am trying to hard... i push too hard on myself... i try to make everyone happy. but are they really happy after all what i have done? am i doing all these for nothing? i dont know. i feel helpless.
my first book is out, finally. and at some points i have conflicts. i do not want to take money because, you know, i feel guilty if people pay for it but in the end they are not satisfied with it. so i rather give it free, not even taking one cent. i am hurting myself for others' sake, but really, will they be happy?
for all these while, i have been a person like this. i sacrifice myself for others. when sharing a bed, when someone is going more than 50% of the bed, i would just keep quiet and sleep as little space i can. when others want to do something which i really like to do it, i would just let them do it and sacrifice my own happiness. when lining up to pay something or whatever, i would finish as fast as possible so that people behind me would not wait for long. when people want to borrow money, i would lend them without asking them to pay back. when i became member of a group to do an assignment, i would do anything i can to make the group happy.
but seriously, are they happy? and, am i happy?
after i got my book, yes, i am really happy. i can smile like one psycho when i look at my book. but when i think about printing it and giving it out, free, i start to have conflict. what if, people want it because it is free? after they receive it, will they even look at it once? will they not appreciate it? and afterall, this project is all by myself, with some help from others. but, still, i feel that... you know, something is not right.
i talked to my mother just now, and i didnt plan to talk about the price of the book. but i still cannot do it, and in the end i told. then, i start to feel guilty if i use money like nobody's business. even though this money is all by me and i have the rights to use them. but if i collect money, then the above thing will make me feel guilty.
i dont know. i am really emo now. and i feel helpless.
i have been trying to make people happy. but do they know that? do they even feel happy?