Today my friend and I finally bought some stupid fish as our pets. But I don't know how long will they survive, just hope you guys can tahan as long as possible.


The small home for these 3 small fellas. I don't know is it ok to have them without any oxygen pump.

i have received some comments (yes, only some -_-) for my novel. well, i know it is not good enough to be called good, but i am trying my best to write it out, since it is my first after so many years.

pisau sudah berkarat ya.

but then i slowly find that i like to write more on fantasy stuffs. this novel is supposed to be somehow near to the real settings, so i control myself, to make the fantasies as only parts of the story, and decided to write a sequel which would be world of fantasy, if i have more than 50 supporters. i know it is kind of impossible because i dont think i have more than 10 readers at the moment. and i also lack of time to really focus on writing novels. this medic school life is killing my time.

your comments, no matter positive or negative, are my motivation to continue writing. although my novel appears to be so cold there, i still work hard for it and spend a lot of time there. now i have already had the main storyline, and 2 of my friends nearly got the ending correct, but still a bit wrong lah. at least i know i have revealed enough clues for the ending.

and i have done a little bit of translation for the novel, but i personally think that it is much a failure. first of all, some jokes are really funny in mandarin, but when it goes to english, it is not funny at all and appears to be crap. and my english is also too bad for producing a novel. so as i doing the translating job, i find that i am wasting a lot of time and producing something not worth.

so for now, i will be focusing on my studies (yes i am trying to do this!) and also my novel in mandarin first. my plan is to finish it during week 2 of the next block. the climax of the story is more to sci-fi and fantasy, so hope my readers can accept it and understand it. because it was my idea for a novel in ktt time.

如果一切顺利，而且我还记得今天想到的东西，明年七月或八月，我会再写一篇小说。什么风格还不确定。可能用标准华语啦。因为我们的华语很难写出来。

《我的高中生活》在近几日会进入第二年。会有一些新的元素在里面。希望读者会明白我的心思，不要把故事当作现实。有狐狸精等等东西希望你们能够接受它为一个故事。因为这个故事包括了科幻、奇幻、玄学、鬼话、梦幻、现实、生活、爱情、亲情、友情……所以尽量放大想像力，不要约束自己的思想。

接下来我有写的，是一个在这个假期跟朋友谈天不小心讲到的一个东西。请大家耐心等待。明天应该就会写完了。

想知道那个“东西”是什么？
就是……
如果一个人的名字是如果。

this is the last post by me from malaysia in 2010.

two weeks ago i put my bags on the floor in my house.

a few hours later i am going to carry them up again.

a new academic year awaits, with much pressure on my head.

somehow i have lost the motivation to be the best like i used to be.

i call it matured, but others see it as failure.

there are many things we need to do, and i am putting more effort on those things.

but then, the requirement must be met.

maybe, other people will understand in the future.

going back to jogja means i need to start working already.

and getting to play dota again.

and writing more vigorously again.

小学的时候，我参加过不少的写作比赛。可是从来都没有得奖。连优秀奖也不能得。
算了。小时了了，大未必佳。小的时候差劲，大的时候未必就不好。
上了中学，我还是一无所有。毕竟是读马来校。写作的机会少。参赛的机会更少。
直到有一天，中四的时候，我的一篇作文得到了65分。
可能65分对很多人来说是没有什么大不了。
可是对我来说，这就是第一步。
接下来，我陆续得到65分，或者更高。
中五的时候，终于又有机会参加比赛。
我参加了散文、小说（不多过5000字）和新诗。
结果一直都没有消息。
直到一年后……


是的，入选奖。
可能入选奖并不代表我有几厉害。
可是，我真的欣赏自己的新诗。
因为我觉得一个中学的比赛，应该不会看好爱情为主题的作品。
可是我还是得奖了。
接下来……



我又比了一个赛。
虽然本身觉得自己的那篇文章很不好，可是还是特优。
接下来……

这个是熏香。是MMU一个比赛我的文章得到第二名的奖品。
好笑的是，我的朋友白粉仔只寄了我不完整的文章，就已经得到第二名了。
而且，这文章只是我在blog中的一篇散文。

这些成就，不能代表我是最厉害的。
可是它们给我一种鼓励，来继续创作。
而且，要写出一个好故事，不一定只有最好的文学家才能做到。

当然我还要谢谢我的家人，我的朋友，我的老师，和我作品的读者。

小学的时候我做过什么？
画画在吉打州得过第二名。

read this comment in youtube yesterday. it sounded something like this...

it is better NOT to have the characters' voice in rpg because we can imagine their voices which suit best, and dont need to argue the voice is dumb or whatsoever.

yea, it is so true. just like in final fantasy 10 i feel like yuna got a nice physical appearance but a ....... somehow disappointing voice for me.

and in the case of novel, the author just describe how the characters look like, then we imagine their appearance. so the one who is described as nice, will appear in my mind as my dream girl. some sort like this. then the gangster with a big keloid on his forehead, i will imagine him like having my keloid on his forehead HAHAHAHA... etc.

so, leaving a space for imagination is important, for all the producers. and for readers or players or viewers, having their own imagination can enhance the effect of the stories to be told.

I have come back home, with a mission of doing nothing for two weeks. And an optional mission of writing a novel less than 5000 words.

This morning, as usual, nothing special.
Then me and Abe had our most expensive breakfast ever.
RP105600 for 2 sets of scramble egg + bread + hot tea.
A lot of juniors flying back today too, but I think they need to go to MSK.
In Hokkien we call it bo ka si, in english we call it never been taught before.
Never greet senior -> me.
If there is MSK after raya, jaga la.

And lastly my poll is closed.
The character who won the "favourite character" title is Romance.
LOL
Then there goes another poll.
Which ends when I go back to Jogjakarta.