DotA ROOKIE tournament

2009 Christmas Night ended with some chocolate cakes and chips, before some DotA games.
Skills are getting better, but there are a lot more people who are a lot more better than me.

Then it passed 12 midnight which marked the beginning of 26 December, which is my accident anniversary, thanks to Tham Lian Jae.
So few of us had happy hour hosted at our house, and even electricity wanted to give us surprise. Okay, fine. Things went on until sunrise.
And I was planning to stay awake the whole day without sleeping already, but at 6.30a.m. I couldn't resist anymore and had a short nap of 30 minutes.

Then I woke up, got ready, and after gathering all my team mates, we head to Myung, the place where we had DotA Tournament.
One damn far place la. But the computers are not bad.

According to Rules and Regulations, we supposed to proceed to second round!
Because our opponent was late for 1 hour. And any team which late for 15 minutes should actually be DQed.
So the Bo1 knock out game was played.
And we were fucked quite badly as the game proceed.
Expected results though, because they are from one cyber cafe.
I thought we would face some noobies like us, mana tau all the teams are cyber cafe teams.

Then had lunch, and continued the day with DotA again.
Oh fuck, whole day with DotA with only 30 minutes of sleep!

圣诞节快乐

美丽克里斯麽斯！

嗯，十二月二十五日，剩蛋节……哦，写错了，是圣诞节。
无可否认，这一天对天下大部分人（据我所知，只要是受教育并生于小康之家或以上的人）来说，这一天是一年内其中一个必庆的节日。

我不是一个有庆祝圣诞节的人，并不是因为我没受过教育，也不是因为我的家低于小康。只是没有这个习惯而已。圣诞节，对我来说，就只是一天假期。

年复一年，依然是单身过圣诞。
唯一有所期待的一年，是中学生涯近尾声的时候，是心碎的前一天。是结局的前一天。
所以我在这一天并没有什么美丽的回忆。

去年的圣诞节，晚上一点多遇上生平第一次严重车祸，记忆力短暂消失，生平第一次入院……
是值得回忆，可是并不美丽。

那一种出现在故事里，温馨、幸福的圣诞节，什么时候我才能体会到？

祝 我部落格 的 读者
圣诞节快乐 ！

仙剑神曲

少年不堪弄情愁，
泛小舟，付水流。
可怜彩蝶，
风雨花满楼。
仙人奇侠虽逍遥，
妖魔道，爱义柔，
红尘万丈有恩仇，
剑气收，笛音休。
憔悴宽衣，红颜为君忧。
霜雪依稀灵珠泪，
奴有梦，月如钩。

20 Dec 2009

Yesterday was Sunday.
Sunday is a non-working day.
So I had no class on Sunday.

Yesterday was full of activities, from morning to night.

First, we played paintball. Paintball can be mispelled as painball and still has its original meaning. LOL! If kena shoot memang pain, but depends on your skin thickness also la. And also how much hair you have because hair can act as shield. We had to wear the suit, smelly like shit. Plus the hot weather and we sweat inside, so we were totally dipped in shit.

After that had the meal of the day at Hartz. That was OMFG because we all were still.. smelly. Ate damn lot of chickens until my fundus is filled. Yeah, that was what I call having a meal.

Then finally bathed and followed by Winter Is Here!
注：冬至，冬乃Winter，至乃来到了，即is here.

And then went for DotA. Roemah Mirota again went crazy and gave us all extra one hour. Won all the games. :P And that wrapped up the Sunny Sunday.

堕落人生

感到不舒服。
不是生病发烧那一类的不舒服，是打从心底的不舒服。

生活压力大，应该要释放一下。
可是要释放，需要的时间不短，需要的精神不小。
所以，我还是选择上线玩游戏。

下个星期要去比赛了。
不抱很大的期望。
我只希望，我不会做错的选择，连累我的队。
连Luqman和Aaron都那么看重我，给我做队长了。
我只怕，到时候会有合作上的问题。
毕竟我们才一起练过两次。
就比如，
一支足球队要在一起练许多许多次，才能够有表现。

我对自己有信心。
怕的只是到时候有些意外。

觉得自己好无聊。
生命中没有喜欢的女人，很没意义。
就如在水彩颜色盘上，水越加越多，生活变淡了。
所以我很想哭。
因为眼睛太干了。
这一种
见她上线说声hi
见她下线说声bye的感觉，
已深埋了。

这几个周末都会很忙。
讨厌。
我只想要好好地休息，懒惰一下。

人生如果能够自甘堕落，烦恼都消失了。
可是堕落的同时，烦恼只会不断增加。
书，还没读。
工，还没做。
钱，还没赚。
到最后还是烦。

枯了，小草。

想起以前的生活，我会想哭。
虽然以前头脑简单，可是生活有目标，而且是能达到的目标。目标达到了，会很高兴。失败了，会努力，接下来就会成功。

现在的生活依然有目标。可是达不到。一次又一次地拉低目标，却一次又一次的失望。努力了，还是失败。堕落下去，也不会有结果。

身体已渐渐出现状况。从外表可以看出来我的身体有事情了。一个人不可能能够在这么短时间内生这么多肉。最近一直感到累。一天睡七小时还会想睡觉。每每吃完饭就会感到要呕。我知道，自己已经不健康。

存在于我脑袋创作的那分子，也渐渐找不到踪影了。因为生活太枯燥，越来越没有灵感。想要写一些故事或者什么的，都是写到一半，觉得自己和自己说话般的，好像一个笨蛋那样，也就按打岔了。

我还剩什么呢？？

至少我还剩下一个家，离开我很远的家。至少他们能够明白，至少他们还会支持我。
可是我真的很累。很累。很累。

我已经忘了，成绩单里印着一排A的感觉，甚至连看见一个A的记忆，也已消失了。
我已经忘了，那种自己做完考试题目后，计算自己不会作答的问题有多少的感觉。
我已经忘了，自己在考完试后依然能够自然地摆出一个笑。
我已经忘了，考到B的那种失望。

自己曾经写过许多激励的文章。可是我自己已经站不起来。
太残忍了。

PreExam Syndrome

Usually days before any big exams, people start having this psychological problem termed Exam Fever. Exam Fever is characterized by decrease in appetite, increase in duration of locking him/herself in room, insomnia, and a more severe condition called psycho may happen.

As for me, I have PreExam Syndrome, not only fever but SYNDROME! A syndrome is a condition where there are combinations of abnormalities act together to cause a problem. So it is basically much more serius than fever.

First of all, I will sleep a lot more compared to normal times. This is due to boredom caused by studying. This may sound stupid, but this is true. These few days I sleep from 2a.m. after finishing missions on game till 8a.m., thanks to all the 7a.m. lectures along this block. Then I wake up, defecate, maybe breakfast, and then play game or study depend on my mood. After that, maybe 10a.m. or 11a.m., I will sleep again until 12p.m. or 1p.m. Then I will have my lunch, and play game after lunch because of my principle: don't study after having meal. Then again I will sleep at 4p.m. to 6p.m. Night time, not everyday but sometimes, I will sleep from 10p.m. to 11p.m.

Second characteristic of this syndrome is a little bit related to the first one. Why do I have boredom only during before exam? Because I simply feel so guilty when I play game, so I will control myself not to play all the time. So, I feel bored and then feel like sleeping.

Another thing is I feel hungry more easily. This may be due to increase brain activity during my study time. HAHAHA! Yea, because I don't feel stress, so I won't feel like not eating anything. Although I sleep a lot when I am having this syndrome, I eat more than normal days. Feel so shitty when I need supper at night but nowhere to eat...

I think the last thing about this syndrome is... I become anti social. Why? I do always lock myself in my room and become a SOLO MID player, but not studying inside all the time. Got study la, but play game still more than studying. So why anti social? Because I don't know who to socialise during such period. Everyone needs to study. It is not good to disturb people. So what do I do? Study, play game, doing nothing, or sleep inside my room.

Last but not least... Good Luck everyone!

A Doctor

There is this doctor, Dr S****, who was supposed to give my group a skills lab session on neonatal resuscitation (feedback).

On that day, the lecturer who gave lecture on 7a.m. came in late, so he finished it late, and when we go to RP building the doctor had gone because we were late and he was fucking pissed off. Okay, fine. Although this is not our fault, I don't want to talk anything because some people simply cannot wait for others.

So this session is postponed.. postponed... postponed.... until yesterday still postponed..... until today, the last day of Block 2.2, Dr S. told us that he is not going to teach us and we need to find another doctor to replace him.

What The Fuck?!

I am so fucking tak syok with him now, but probably next block we will still meet him. When people want to take lecture slides from his lap top, he said he scared got virus enter his lap top, so there is no any lecture slides of his lectures.

Why la? Become Spesialis Anak then mental also becoming like Anak already? Haiz...

1 December

First day of the Last Month of year 2009 - 1st December 2009.
The day started with a 7a.m. lecture, but it was postponed, so whole day no more class. Woke up at 6 for nothing.
Then play game la whole day, although exam is coming soon.

Haiz.. nothing liao, bye.