now is the end of theory years. a lot of things to be done.
but of course, if you know how to spend time, you will have time.

i should start studying, but still not in the mood of doing this.
chinese new year is coming soon. another year without ang pao. sigh!

i said, if we know the result, the process is not important anymore.
the ultimate ending for each of us, is death.
but the result of what we are doing at this moment, dont know.
this is why we are working hard in the process.
and if we know? then, really, the process is not important.

i always have a lot in my mind. but very little in action and speech.
and i feel... no need to have someone who really know what is in my mind.
the most important thing is, we can go along well.
just like, we dont need to know how deep is the ocean, we just need to know we must sail safely on the sea.

recently i beat a game, in a few days. yeah!
"what to do when i felt lonely... that was the only thing you couldnt teach me. but we need to figure out the answer for ourselves..."
this sentence brought chills when i saw it, in that game.

and the most important thing, ever, is...
im still here!

finally it's 2012

Although it is the start of a whole new year, everyday still consists of 24 hours which part of them I spend sleeping and the rest either working or chilling. Frankly, everything just stays the same. Same lifestyle, same habits, same pattern.

2011 is a great year, a year that really had me changed a lot. I turned 21, and got myself into a lot of things. I think for at least 2 years from now, 2011 would still be the most interesting year in my life. Some life-changing events occurred along the way, till the end of the year where things settled down slowly, not in the way that I like.

As what people say, happy or not it will still be another day. So why keep yourself in a not-so-happy state? But sometimes, we care, and this is the reason that makes us difficult to be happy.

Although it ended not in the favor of me, I still hope 2012 would be as great as 2011, if not greater. And soon I will face real patients, and failing does not mean failing in exam and retake afterwards anymore. Failure can lead to ... disabilities and deaths in worst scenarios. But I already forget most of the things I have learned all these while, so god bless those patients.

There are a lot of events in 2011 that fulfill the criteria to be theme for stories. Slowly, or soon, I will write them out as novel. And then, the cycle begins again...