That is my timetable for my clinical rotation, and finally I have finished everything except the last department, OBSGIN, or in full obstetric and gynecology. This means that I am supposed to be able to do everything a doctor can do besides those obsgyn related stuff. But, really? I doubt myself.

Life as a doctor who is not a doctor yet is actually quite good. I dont really have to be responsible on anything that happen, for example a patient has any complication, the real doctor will be the one responsible to handle that. Unless, I am so stupid to take a knife and stab the patient, then I am responsible for that. 

Jiwa, mata, bedah, THT (EnT), IKM (public health), anak, forensik, anestesiologi, interna, saraf, kulit. Often people ask, which one do I prefer to specialise in. And to most of the people, either layman or those who still not yet go through bedah, especially boys, would say "bedah is interesting". Maybe, but not for me. Although some of the operations are really interesting, I feel it is only interesting to watch how the operations go. This is only my opinion though, because I dont really like to cut living human flesh or burn it.

Some departments have interesting knowledge, but crazy scary life. Some have nice relax life, but confusing knowledge behind it. Worst stuff is, crazy scary life with confusing crazy knowledge. For example, forensic is actually damn interesting, learning how a person die and so on. But in reality, when the corpse comes at midnight with the letter from police, I have to go and touch and cut and examine the dead body, sometimes with maggots crawling all over the body, with the crazy smell. Dermatology (skin) has simple relax life, but it is so damn confusing, that one disease can be given different diagnosis by different specialists. And then there is internal medicine, where your life is not easy and the knowledge is like damn a lot.

There are a few interesting cases I have during this more than one year time. And from these I learned that medicine is actually more than just medicine, it is medicine as the base, plus social, economy, logical thinking, and a lot more. But of course, interesting in medicine most likely will end up a sad ending.