其实呢，趁现在我有时间，有出入的自由，还有更重要的是，有一些花钱的本事，我不想要后悔。
所以呢，我就应该好好利用这半年的时间。不要留下遗憾。

首先要做的，其实也不是首先，是一直以来都在做的，是能帮人就帮人。

接下来，就是做自己想做的。

最后，就是留够钱回马来西亚买车买房！

再三个星期就考试了，考试前还有少少事情要处理。
希望这一次会比上一次更好……

my beliefs

1 week holiday finally going to end...

im thankful for all the decisions i made, and everything that happened all these while.
i pray hard for all the decisions i made though, from daily little decisions to big shit decisions.
and i do believe, they are helping me.

and i believe that all the people have their own lives.
i have life too, and sometimes my life clashes with others'.
i am trying to minimize this, and let everyone enjoys their own life.
but then... sometimes things are just difficult to do.

time has started to go over the speed limit. i feel like time passes damn fast.
and soon, i will settle my third year.
and soon, finish the theory studies.
all these are too fast. i feel like i just start to learn something and it is going to end already.
good thing about time going too fast is...
it makes every departure not a hard one.
because we are going to meet each other soon. :D

there are a lot of things in my mind.
but there are only few people i can trust, to share what i think.
as time passes, faster and faster, my list of trusted friends is getting shorter and shorter.
even though i never really step into society, i already have this kind of feeling...
that everyone is wearing a mask.
that noone is truthful enough to live without hiding.
even me, i fake a lot of things. including expressions.
but without conscious, im getting less expressionless...
maybe, thanks to someone. :D

i believe that there are reasons behind everything.
im lazy, and thats good for everyone.
i think if im hardworking enough, this world will be in doom.
im too dangerous to know a lot of stuff. xD

sometimes i do things bypassing my brain.
i think i really need to be fully rational again.
so, sorry for all the people i have hurt.

and i believe one day i will succeed like nobody's business!