my beliefs

1 week holiday finally going to end...

im thankful for all the decisions i made, and everything that happened all these while.
i pray hard for all the decisions i made though, from daily little decisions to big shit decisions.
and i do believe, they are helping me.

and i believe that all the people have their own lives.
i have life too, and sometimes my life clashes with others'.
i am trying to minimize this, and let everyone enjoys their own life.
but then... sometimes things are just difficult to do.

time has started to go over the speed limit. i feel like time passes damn fast.
and soon, i will settle my third year.
and soon, finish the theory studies.
all these are too fast. i feel like i just start to learn something and it is going to end already.
good thing about time going too fast is...
it makes every departure not a hard one.
because we are going to meet each other soon. :D

there are a lot of things in my mind.
but there are only few people i can trust, to share what i think.
as time passes, faster and faster, my list of trusted friends is getting shorter and shorter.
even though i never really step into society, i already have this kind of feeling...
that everyone is wearing a mask.
that noone is truthful enough to live without hiding.
even me, i fake a lot of things. including expressions.
but without conscious, im getting less expressionless...
maybe, thanks to someone. :D

i believe that there are reasons behind everything.
im lazy, and thats good for everyone.
i think if im hardworking enough, this world will be in doom.
im too dangerous to know a lot of stuff. xD

sometimes i do things bypassing my brain.
i think i really need to be fully rational again.
so, sorry for all the people i have hurt.

and i believe one day i will succeed like nobody's business!